Derby becomes her

It is said (and i wish i knew by who so i could make-out my gratitude with them) that you don't do roller derby, you become it or rather it becomes you. You are derby. You think about it, you dream about it, you talk about it, you engage in it. If it was fuckable you'd never leave whatever area that you're fucking it in except to take it to the rink to skate the hell out of it...only to repeat process.
I need derby. If i left, i would return to the human i was before. Quietly angry, generally depressed but funtional, unhealthy and dispassionate.
With derby, im healthy, mentally balanced, happy, passionate and a role model for my daughter!
My team needs me. Even being the lowest on the team totem pole (which i am not) my team functions better with me than without me. They are proud of me and i am proud of them. We work, grow and learn together...we're a family. We have our moments but understand how and why things happen and work as a unit to correct them. We support and encourage each other in ways that we may not receive off track. Which is more important than some of us realize. We are derby....and all the things that come with that statement. Im so honored to be a part of it.

Cant stop dreaming

My mind is busy. Its harassing itself with thoughts that amount to nothing. It's running wild through its own streets shouting for someone, anyone to listen to its obsessive, empty ramblings.
"Friction destroys the bond!!"