Strength os sometimes weakness?

Seeking shelter from all the wants of the world that keeping raining down in me. The pressure keeps cracking my bones when i least expect it and when i look at myself i keep finding these pieces of me missing. What can i do? Hunker.down and take the beating? Hope theres enough of me left over to retain some sense of myself to continue?

Thinner

Growing very weary of smiling. I've been unearthing them as if they were rare jewels and wearing them like whore paint. Pulling myself thinner and thinner. Barely able to grasp the thoughts let alone form them into coherent sentences. I give up.