I was super-pissed when I first found out. Then I moved on into acceptance and became happy about having a baby.....then worried when it dawned on me that the man I love, with whom i've had major issues (to the point of moving out) is the father.
He claims he has a purpose now - to be a father. I understand that some people just need a wake up call. I was hoping this was his......
I found out less than 30 days ago about the baby....less than 30 days and he's already falling back into old habits.
Im worried about his abilities to cope with all the things that come with having a child...he can't even care for himself half of the time.
Our relationship isn't suddenly fixed but it does go on the backburner now that we have a bigger issue. What happens when the baby is growing up and all mommy and daddy do is fight? I don't want to fight around my child but with jeremy, it seems inevitable....his temper.
We have to be out of this house in less than a week and all he has done is pack some books and cds.
Im so scared and stressed out from this and working too much that im not sure how much more I can take. How could I let myself end up this way? I don't know what to do....
If you and Jeremy need any help moving, let me know. I could borrow my Grandpa's truck. He may not ask for my help, but you could if he doesn't. Another thing; having Ayden was the best thing for me... it changed my life for the better in so many ways... I pray that he gets this life wake-up call as well...
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