- when you walk outside and there's no traffic, no body walking around only the sound of street lights changing.
- when you get to work and everything is up and running but there's no coworkers around.
..you hold your breath, you panic for a moment but then a car or a person telling you the meeting is down a floor. Whew!
- im laying in bed, caressing my swollen abdomen thinkng about the man next to me. I realize that he doesn't know how to care for himself. He doesn't know how to be in a proper relationship......I think about the baby.....he knows what kind of father he doesn't want to be but will that alone make him a good father? I think of all the times he's lied to me. I think of all the seeds of doubt he's planted. 4 years of this and when I cry he still asks 'whats wrong?' I wish I had the wherewithall to ask him to leave. I dont do well with someone that only cares when its convenient, but who will care for an unwed mother like me?
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