Blog #something

Im trying to sort things out in my head but it keeps getting muddled.
If someone doesn't care about you but then cares about you when you're pregnant, how will things pan out once the baby is born?
No wedding in sight. Only a truce at best to keep the fighting off. Am I doomed to end up in a court trying to prove my love to stranger that holds my fate at gavels end?
I feel no peace. I feel fear and frustration. I feel like im not even real anymore...
Who is this person that's scared to cry too loud? I heard she was strong once. I heard she was force to be reckoned with. That pile of stupid flesh can't possibly be her.
Can you believe she's pregnant?! How will she care for a child in that state? What a waste.