12/02/2011

My heart feels weak today. Its definitely my fault. I keep running scenarios in my head of painful future events that may or may not happen. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst? Not this girl. Pessimism all the way.
The future doesn't scare me....the people in it do. The ones I care about mostly. It amazing to me that the people we care for the most usually cause us the most pain. Be it good old fashioned fighting and miscommunication or death. Somewhere along the line, someone you love will cause you pain. It could be accidental or on purpose. Doesn't really matter, its going to happen.
I think about these things and try to react appropriately not knowing exactly how that might be.
Myeh. I think about these things like the now is any less complicated.