Bitter Princess

I recently discovered that my first and middle name combined, means bitter princess.
Aren't I fortunate? Its explains a lot actually.
* I put all of myself into my relationships because I don't believe in half assing things and none of them have worked out. Bitterness
* Dad was in and out of our lives til I was 16 or so, now he doesn't recognize us. (My sister and I) Bitterness
* The one person I was closest to growing up, moved to Florida and overdosed 6 years ago. BITTERNESS.
* Im pregnant and the baby's father has been unable to care for himself, let alone us for quite sometime. Subsequently, we are not together as I can't take care of all 3 of us. Bitter, bitter, bitter.
There is more but those are the highlights.
I understand that we all have ups and downs but im seeing how the good has been outweighed.
I will continue to try to find happiness. I will mourn its passing with a smile and quiet tears.
That is the station of a bitter princess. To keep her head up despite the pain. To go on smiling and caring for the sake of those in her charge.
To do what is best for everyone and not just herself.